Does anyone bother coming here anymore? I’m still alive! This site will be dead soon. I guess I’m just checking in. I do have a new site, in case you were wondering. You can contact me for the link if you’d like to keep in touch, or keep reading. If you don’t have my email just leave a comment and I’ll try to return it before this site disappears. Take care

Are you looking for some police gear for work or play? If so I have just the place for you. LA Police Gear has some nice boots, jackets, Blackhawk holsters and backpacks for all you rugged players. You don’t have to be a police to sport this gear, in fact, I see many people wearing the items that the site offer on a day to day basis!

I’ve been trying to get everything together with all my sites. It hasn’t been as easy as I expected. I also failed to meet my deadline. I hope the wife isn’t like “off with her head” LOL. Well, I guess she could always just delete it or threaten me. I have been working on it. I also have a hosting bill that’s due tomorrow or so. I should get to getting on that. That’s all I need is another due date. You’ll probably start seeing “this site has been suspended due to billing issues”. Haha. I’ve been forgetful these days. Oh well.

I know I’ve been in a bind quite a bit lately. It’s hard paying bills when you’re going to school and can’t work as much as you’d like to. Instead of getting into a constant domino effect of late fees with credit card companies you should consider getting payday loans. At least that way the late fees wont be piling up!

I didn’t plan on blogging but I’m up so I might as well pass the time. I don’t know what’s going on with my health but everyday it seems like there’s something else going wrong. I scheduled an appointment with a new doctor so hopefully she’ll be able to answer some questions that have been going around for the last four years. I’ve been sleeping a lot lately. I went to sleep early today because so much is going on. I woke up because I was having breathing problems.

There’s something going on in my family that makes me really sad. I might end up spending time with them this weekend if I feel good enough to drive home…and if I don’t have any group projects to do over the weekend. Speaking of group projects…I got an A on the Spanish play. It was very last minute. We had one meeting to discuss what we were going to do and THE DAY OF the play I bought and cooked the food while we practiced what we were going to do. We only ran through it once. I’m really surprised by the grade. Seriously shocked. I thought I was going to end up with a C…so this is the best news I’ve ever had from that professor. That’s also 10% of my grade and I NEEDED that. But with good comes bad. I can’t say that I’m surprised because she’s not the nicest professor I’ve had but I wont get into that.

I think I’m going to install a mini blog plug-in to my new site because I’ve been having a lot of one line blogs lately. That’ll save space on the main page.

I’m so hungry. I might make some soup or something. I think I have some Campbell’s chicken noodle. I’m not really a fan of that but I love their soup at hands.

I installed the “college version” of Firefox. I needed something a bit different because the version I had was giving me problems all the time. So far this seems to be working better. Hopefully it’ll stay that way.

This very well might be my last blog on this site, hence the title. I’m not sure. It all depends on what happens with other sites. If you want the new link contact me.
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I was at war with myself and now I’ve found inner peace.

Sometimes it’s hard for things to not catch up with you. I’ve had my share of crazy times in my life and I try not to talk about them or think about them. Then there’s those days when I just sit up and cry. Sometimes the only thing that keeps me going is someone who isn’t even alive.

I did an utter yesterday that I wanted to put on my site. I thought I made it private but it turns out I didn’t. It’s something that I feel better sharing on here because I know others stumble upon utterz and I don’t think it’s something that too many people will understand. I don’t know how to put it on my site so oh well.

I want to make my site twitter like. I’ve had the urge to post a lot of short posts recently but it seems like a waste. Maybe I can find a plugin to do something like that. I haven’t been blogging as much as I used to. Oh well. I have a test in the morning so I’m going to end this here. I haven’t studied for it yet and now I’m tired. Go figure. I hope I pass. *sigh*

Ever feel like you had to keep the best part of your life a secret? That’s how I feel sometimes and it saddens me.

It’s daylight savings time…that means I lost an hour and it’s already 6am. That’s the last thing I need. I like when you fall back because I get that extra hour…but when I spring ahead I am NOT a happy camper. Oh well, what can I do?

Tonight was a pretty good night. We had “family time”. I went bowling with my entire family then we went out to eat. It was nice being able to spend time with them. When we get along we’re a really great family. LOL. They got me out of the house which is nice. I don’t have any friends that I just chill with. If I ever hang with anyone it’s a random thing that happens once every blue moon. So I really never get to go out. I haven’t been out drinking yet…and I’m 21. I’ll be 22 soon. That sounds really sad.

I want to meet different people. I’m content on not having friends but sometimes that can be boring. I want to be a loner with associates, I guess…if you can even call them that. I’ve noticed that I’ve been drawn towards older people lately. I’ve never been one to hang out with people around my age but now it seems like I feel comfortable around people even older than before. Or maybe it’s because I’m getting older that these people seem so old. I’m not sure. I feel like I can’t relate with most people my age.

I feel a certain way about a lot of things and I’ve grown up a lot right in front of your eyes. Yes…you. LOL. But really, I have. I know I still have my flaws but there are a lot of things that are better about me. I was supposed to graduate next month. That’s not happening because of me not being sure of what I want to spend the rest of my life doing and not being sure if I really want to be in school. My next stepping stone will take place in a few months. I’m getting my own apartment. I started off in a dorm room with a roommate, upgraded to a single room, upgraded to an apartment with a roommate and now I’ll have a place that’s all mine. A place that I can call home. I’m also trying to work on another deal but I want to keep that under wraps until I figure out what’s going to happen.

I have a lot to say but I wont say too much more. I’m about to start a registry filled with items I could use in my new home. I’m really considering throwing a house warming party. People get too nosey though. They’ll just show up to see what neighborhood you live in and that type of stuff.